The Glitz and Glamour of the Casino

Sometimes things shock me about how they are looked at by the average person, or the government. Not long ago I went to a Casino for the first time ever, and at the end of the night I was up about $25. I spent maybe 2 hours in there and had some fun.

What scares me though is when I was leaving the Casino…the same people I saw when I entered hadn’t moved, and I could tell almost all of them hadn’t won anything.

I was tempted myself… I kept saying you will only make money if you bet big… but when you bet big and lose… you want to win it back… so you bet bigger to make it back… and lose until you eventually win and feel what it is like only later seeing your win of $10 is nothing on the $50 you spent before it.

Then you have people who try to beat the Casino. It is a hard known fact that it is almost impossible to legitimately beat the Casinos, but people try… and succeed to. But why is it that the people who are smart enough to beat Casinos get imprisoned and the company whose living is made from ruining peoples lives… isn’t.

I never heard anyone say they walked into a Casino, won something more then maybe $100 and then left. People rarely have that. Normally the very few big wins are just funding for that person’s addiction, and make their way right back to the Casino.


 It would seem as if I have found my lifes rutt; “Already?” I say. I got out of high school and straight away I had gotten lucky with my job as I became a longshoremen. It is a superb job, no questions about that, but things have seemingly plateaued already. I wake up, fight traffic, work, drive home, sleep, and repeat. It is fairly common up until my days off. When most people are hanging out with friends or doing whatever it is they love, I am at home, sleeping in for far too long or not really doing anything unique or productive to myself. You may say “Why not before/after work hang out with friends?”… I typically work from 4:30 pm til 1:00 am… I wake about  about 1:15 pm so I can get to my works dispatch on time, then obviously head to work itself. Waking up early means I am tired and most of my friends are at school or work, whilst after work is limited because most people are too tired to do anything at that time. It is a little difficult. On top of that, I always want a day off, yet never seem to make the most of them in any way better then if I had just gone to work instead.

 Is this where my life is going to stay for a while? I mean sure, I have goals, but attaining them seems near impossible. I have few hobbies which can occupy me to long and what I would call the source of my problem, a girlfriend; Well, I should say “My lack of a girlfriend”. I am yet to determine whether this desire for a relationship is what makes my life feel empty or not… perhaps I need a larger dose of my meds and nothing is the problem: I haven’t a clue but it has felt like this a fair while now.

My favorite times are the ones which stray from the norm of a typical ‘goody two shoes’. I don’t call myself a rebel, but I have more open morals in some ways especially compared to what my parents would like me to be. I am Atheist, and my parents are Christian. I don’t mind going to a club and getting smashed now and then: They do. I don’t mind if I meet a random girl at that club and start making out with them: My parents do, and I don’t mind having sex before marriage, hell, even before things are really serious (I am a guy for f*** sake), my parents probably would mind though.

I have to hide from them when I hang out with a girl because I feel they will simply assume I am that person I play myself off to be when really… I just want to live as a teen while I am one.

Yet I still feel a small urge to make them happy with what I do, and for some reason… I choose to do that by hiding what I do most the time…. man this is weird.



I know I am meant for, and missing something.

Ideas? Thoughts? Please…


It is what we relax in after a long nights work, what we use to escape the rain and rejoin comfort in warmth and comfort. In the summer is cools you down, and in the winter heats you up. It is always waiting for you with patience, no matter where you are or for how long. We put our life in its hands knowing it will keep us safe. From good times talking with friends, or just listening to a good song. Whether you are feeling good or feeling blue it never minds. It makes things just right for you without question and gets you where you need to be.

The car is an amazing thing.

Atheism on the mind…

I have had a debate with almost all of my Christian friends by now, and every time I do, I have to start over with them: They all say something different.

I have read the bible, and I have interpreted it the way the book reads… If I have a question about a particular passage in it, I have asked one of my friends for an explanation. All my friends say something that either isn’t answering the question, or is 110% different from what another person of the same religion says for the same question.

Compare this to Atheists. I have never once meet an Atheist who has a different answer for ANY question about our origins, or God, ever. Our knowledge is set in Science which is repeatable and proven only in testing: It cannot be misread or misinterpreted and if it can, it is not considered proof, and is then tested further.

How truthful can something be if you never get the same answer? If a series of video cameras say that the criminal was wearing a black shirt, why would you deny that evidence and listen to the twelve people who say “It was brown”, “It was dark blue”, “It was green” or something else off the mark.

From Here to There

My phone is now more powerful than my first two laptops were as well as both our desktop computers, combined. We live in a period where phones have octocore processors and 2gb of RAM. This is the power of competition and innovation because you simply don’t find this quickly a movement in the computer market.

PC’s took years before they moved from dual to quad core and we still haven’t gotten octocore on all PC’s. Cell phones? One year we have 1ghz, later that year dual core. Next year, dual core 1ghz. Next year, 1gb ram and dual core. Next year quad core. Next year 2gb RAM. Next year octo core. It is insane how quickly science can move when companies are all fighting such a brutal battle of which phone you have in your pockets.


2012 was a truly spectacular year. In my world of tech, Samsung became the first single phone to outsell the iPhone, with their S3, Android still holds strong in the mobile market, Microsoft let loose Windows 8 though probably not a great OS… A man jumped from outer space onto Earth, Gangnam Style takes the cake as the most viewed video online with well over 1 billion views, James Bond crosses a milestone of 50 years making an absolute blockbuster and possibly thee best Bond movie in history, the Hobbit marks a remarkable return to theaters as the first movie to be shown in 48 fps over the normal 24, Nintendo releases their latest and greatest innovation the Wii U, Barack Obama wins in the presidential race for a second time, a Berlin man became the first to be cured of HIV, NASA successfully lands its rover on Mars and not long after sends back the first ever colour HD photos from the planet, California moves forward though as they sign a bill to allow the first ever self driving cars on the roads, Google opens its Google Glass to all and makes with LG the best selling Nexus Phone and with Asus the best selling 7″ Android tablet. We all lost amazing people in the world such as Neil Armstrong, Sally Ride, Gore Vidal, Michael Duncan, Andy Griffith, The victims of several absolutely unfortunate and sad shootings, Norodom S, Whitney Houston, Ray Bradbury, Maurice Sendak, Dick Clarke, Donna Summer, Mike Wallace and many other great people.

Yes, A lot has happened, and our world will always move on from it. It was an amazing year… so lets see how great we can make this one. 🙂